Down the rabbit hole ... About me

Well I've cleaned out all my old blogs, this is a new space for me to empty my mind of what's going on ...

So anyway what is going on??

Who am I???

Im Angel I'm married to the most wonderful person. He is my rock and go to guy when my head plays games on me and most of all he is my best friend in the world. His name is Master ... You see I live in a Master / slave relationship .. he says jump and I say " your fucking joking my back is killing me" and then jump as it's what he wants. This is something I have pushed for and I'm so very happy with that, and so is he. We live this way 24/7, it's not just a weekend thing!! I'm by no means a walk over to him or anyone else, I'll stand my ground when needed, but I'm there to care for him and look after his needs whatever they may be.

I've got two grown up kids that kinda know about my life, they are amazing and I love the bones of them. I also have a grandchild, my wee bubs ... Cherub of my life, who I sadly don't get to see enough of.

And then I'm also mum to three awesome dogs...

I work constantly and wouldn't wish for another job, my workplace if fairly cool too.

So more about my life. I've been in the scene for about 20 on and off ... Tho sometimes I still don't feel like I fit in with most that are in it. To be honest I rarely feel like I fit in anyplace but bugger it I still try.

I met Master via working or more to the point helping at one of the fetish clubs many years ago but we lost touch but reconnected on a fet site a few years back. Something just clicked and felt right with him, now don't get me wrong we have had a few bad days but our good days far outweigh them ... Everyday we have a bloody good laugh ... And that's the way life should be. We got engaged and moved in together really fast and a couple of years later we was married... And everyday my love for him grows deeply.

Now a few weeks back I had a brain wave or brain fart, jury is still out on this, that it would be a great idea to add another into our relationship. To start with it was well not quite as simple as add just one more person in but with a few tweaks of the idea we have decided to go Polly.

The Polly idea...

We didn't expect to find anyone for a good few months but a joint profile was made and the search started. As we thought slow to start but Master got a pm from a lass and we'll after many PM's and txts ... Oh and a meet up we have decided to make her one of the clan. Yes she is also kinky dinky ... That was the whole reason for it ... In my head my Master is my King and a king cannot have a slave for a queen, Im not good enough for that, so there was a hunt for a queen that would be submissive to him but Dom to me ... And we think we may have found her. It didn't even take that long.

How do I feel...

Although this was my idea, I'm scared, I'm really scared I've started something that may end us, don't get me wrong the lass is lovely and pretty but what if this backfires and I loose the one person that means the earth to me. He has assured me this won't be the case but I can't help but think the worst.  Sometimes I think I could cry and other times I'm very excited about it all, but the fear factor is really high just now. Oh Christ what have I started ... Well who knows, I may be worried about nothing and everything will be absolutely amazing. Only time will tell. But this will be my safe space to write everything down, the good along with the bad.

So our first actual time will be Sunday, nervous doesn't begin to cover it.

I'll update later .. toodles